Ale La (Go There)

Surrender and Trust. Those are terrible words. They feel terrible anyways. I mean, I'm sure they are wonderful in theory. But anyone who has ever struggled with Surrender and Trust knows what I am talking about; that sinking feeling when trust comes up in a conversation, the numbness when someone says, " Don't you trust yourself? " and the near hysteria when you realize that trust and surrender mean that sometimes bad things happen. Well, I guess bad things happen anyways whether you trust, surrender, or not. Yes, this post is off to a cheerful start. I have been thinking a lot about  this time  when I was in Peru and vividly remembering my conversation with God about surrender. I remember that I was reading the book of Job on that trip, and I was struck by the encompassing tragedy of it, and how Job just sat in the dirt and wept for days. I remember that when I finally told God, " I think you can really HAVE my life... Yes, really. " I wanted to sit